Monday, April 10, 2017

Life after Life:In Gratitude

Surrender  24x24 Acrylic on Board 

"Artists live on magical thinking and cosmic intervention”, a phrase I coined several summers ago, is a fit expression of the way things have expressed themselves in my life. Though always considering myself and artist, this security-seeking young woman of 50’s suburban culture chose a conventional life after college, as if the script would automatically have a positive result - that was her model after all. Ten+ years later, with family responsibility and a difficult marriage, a serious stress-induced illness forced her out of her uneasy complacency and into serious contemplation about her life-purpose, beyond home-making, mothering, and attempted husband-pleasing. With deep unhappiness the fuel, the fear-evoking unknown path to this present lay ahead, so she summoned her courage and jumped into her tributary of the river of life.

Source   24x36 Acrylic on Board
Magical thinking implies it’s easy. but doesn’t mean there isn’t hard work involved - it’s probably better described as having faith that it’ll all turn out OK if I follow my dream, aka Joseph Campbell, and I’m going to have to take real personal responsibility and get seriously creative. Public response to my early semi-abstract watercolors had been very positive, and the art-sales climate in Texas was good. With the encouragement of my art-business related friends, I jumped into the void of joblessness, and launched my professional artist’s career, though I didn’t call my self an “artist” for another fifteen years. The great good fortune of early success made me believe I could make a living doing what I loved - it took many more years to manage the anxiety of the choice. Determination, patience and mantra repetition, and the simple joy of the art-path, helped with that.

Each painting of the “Offerings to the Gods” series uses a work of 8-10 years ago as a base (most created five or more years after I began to paint abstractly). Now I know how to finish them! In life, we build on everything that came before - our thoughts, emotions, experiences are a big pile we stand on, culling meaning (true or not) as we can - thus the approach I’ve taken with the titles pointing to my meaning for each piece.  Bill often said, “ The meaning comes after the work.”  I have been told my work, and the example of my”art-life” is inspirational.  I see many people around me giving back in meaningful and caring ways - this is my way.  Assigning meaning to everything, the bits of wisdom I have gained, the mysterious meditative beauty of the work I am creating, and authentic sharing with all who cross my path, are my gift to the cosmos for all the Source has given me in this life. 

An abstract painting by Marianne Hornbuckle - 13th in the Offerings to the Gods Series.
Universal Spirit (According to Me) - 30x40" Ac/Canvas
Having arrived now at the far end of the path, I think about the magical events, and cosmic intervention that supported my journey. I am grateful for a wonderful artist husband who never said no, don’t do that, and for being guided to the study of Eastern philosophies and religion, and for the major shift in my life view. Without the support of all my like-minded friends and my children, and my own willingness to tackle learning new skills for this new world, I couldn’t have done it.  The Source has nourished me incredibly - the paintings I am doing now are an artist’s attempt to share that inspiration and  beauty with others. I am grateful for the rewards of choosing a path less travelled. Thank you for sharing my journey.      

1 comment:

  1. Marianne this is beyond Awesome!! -Josef Tornick


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